Life is harsh, but you have to go trough it
Luckily I have people around me, taking care of me.
Plainly boring with a dash of laziness but despite all that, i rock! lmao!!! currently studying in KBU college, Hospitality and Tourism Management. I'm a sucker for junk food and currently crave Lollipops and Eclipse. I friggin want a PSP [slim and light, red colour]
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DEALING WITH LIFE
Saturday, October 28, 2006, 7:49 PM
it's been so long since i updated.. rite? lotsa things been happening.i still haven't studied for spm. that suck.why am i being so lazy? all i want to do is have fun.. that really gotta stop! gotta control yourself amelyn!!
i have been going out alot with tv and shoan. that has to stop too, unless i studied alot then only i shall go out with them. whee~
i have been emo-ing quite alot this three weeks. man i have neva been this emo since last two years! but then afta that someone came along and made me alright. now im happy as can be~ lol, but i feel like whacking that fella some times.. just kiddin.
rite now i just love my life and i hope that it won't change. i dont want any disappointment but nobody is perfect. you just gotta deal with life. that's how it is! muax!
CASCADA - EVEYTIME WE TOUCH
Monday, October 23, 2006, 7:47 PM
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so.
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast.
I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
WATCH OUT FOR US!!! LOL
Thursday, October 19, 2006, 1:38 AM
attack of the cae me!!!
on the so called roof
only 28 more days till spm.. look at what were doing..STORY TIME 8
Wednesday, October 18, 2006, 10:45 PM
josiah was happily playing with his new toy that he recieve for his birthday in the living room with renee. aunty jane then asked him to go and take a bath so he went. after he bathe, he came out to play with his toy but again but then he found out that 2 balls were missing.(i don't know what kind of toy is that!!!) he knew that renee lose/steal/hide it so he went and ask her..Josiah : Where is my balls?
Renee : I don't know.. i put it here and it's not here already
Josiah : Renee go find my balls..
Renee : *Didn't bother about Josiah, just went to watch to t.v*
Josiah : Renee!!! go and find it!!!!
Renee : *Stare's at the t.v intently*
Josiah : Renee!!!! go and find it!!!!
Renee : *Still didn't care what Josiah is saying.. continues to watch the t.v*
Josiah : Go and find it now!!! oi Renee find it now!! *anger rising* Renee go and find it!!!
Renee : *Lalalala im not listening*
Josiah : *Couldn't take it anymore* * punch Renee on the face!!!!!* (lmao!!!!)
Renee : * Cried and started shouting*
Joel : Oi!! Josiah why you did for!!
Josiah : *Couldn't take it anymore because he looks up to his brother.. when his brother scolds him, he wud be sad* *went into the room where Aunty Jane was*
Aunty Jane : What happened?
Josiah : That Renee la!! *then told Aunty Jane what happened*... then i was angry la so i punch her..
Aunty Jane : Why did you do that for?!?!
Josiah : She la!! people talking to her and she never answer!! she just watch t.v only.. you like it anot when you talking to poeple and they neva anwser! you try la.. * looks away pretending to watch the t.v* you like anot?!
Aunty Jane : Laughs and said something to cheer him up
and then Josiah went out of the room happily forgetting about his toy.. for three days they still couldn't find the toy and until now they still couldnt find it
sigh* my mother ask me to take her into the room and lecture her.. my mother said to tell her that she better give back the balls.. if tomorrow i ask josiah or aunty jane that she hasn't return the balls.. i wont friend her!!!! lol well my mother ask me to do so because renee looks up to me.. renee loves me the most among the rest.. ehehe *not being perasanted k!!*
FRIDAY THE 13TH
Monday, October 16, 2006, 1:22 AM
this is the first time that i did something that i woudln't do.
went to hartamas with shoan,mei,ngah ming and my sister, amanda. i ate spagetthi and drank chinese tea.. whee~ then came t.v,chris and kimmy with her bunch of friends..before that,kimmy was celebrating michelle b'day in souled out. after that we headed to Laundry (the curve). jacky met us there with adrian and friends and after a while jason came..i was just stoning with ngah ming when suddenly i saw jason coming up to me and guess what he did.. he wish me happy birthday. lmao i just stared at him and pointed at michelle. i turn to look at chris,t.v and shoan and they started bursting out laughing.. bodoh sial all of them so mean..i was sitting down which made me start thinking about stuff and i couldn't take it anymore. did something and drank too much.. i knew that i can't take much alcohol but i didn't give a damn. i got a lil bit high and my stupid sisters pulled me to dance.. i don't dance!!! lol i did this and that.went to drink some more and in the end i got drunk and my little teddy bear took care of me the whole time.. i also dance with alex and that was it. was sitting down the whole time eating ice, lying down, laughing by myself?, saying stupid stuff and other shits i did. when it was time to go back, we went to sit outside for a while.. i started laughing and i wouldn't stop moving.. ahah mei had to hold me so i wouldn't fall. i dunno who ask me about my spm, which made me cry. lol we then head to kayu (ss2). on the way to kayu i was crying and said some stuff. mei drove jie's car, kimmy was taking care of me and chris was comforting me the whole way. i felt like a small girl because of the way chris talked to me..when we were at kayu i did another 'something'. ordered teh o ais limau. ate abit of roti tisu and rested abit, after a while i felt like puking. i got up, stand next to jie, turn around and bluuueeeeekkk. lol my puke went into the fountain...and crap the food i ate came out.. my spagetthi!! lol was so gross out.. went to wash up and when i went back to my seat,saw that chris, jason and shoan weren't in thier seat.. lol jie said that they went to puke also and i started laughing, saw them at the drain..(but jason neva puke) i dunno how i ended up getting limau air panas and hot water..i had 3 drinks!! lol and i didn't finish them all, i usually drink all my drinks. when we walk back to the car, i suddenly felt like puking again and so i walk to the drain.it was the same drain that chris and shoan puke, crap when i saw the puke i puke...aish so yeah when we reach home i went to bed and immediately slept.
thanx shoan,kimmy,mei and jie for taking care of me and chris for comforting me. i wuv you all .i really appreciate shoan. haha can't really have fun because of me!! sigh*
jie,me and ngah ming (look at the spagetthi= my puke) lolin hartamas
shoan and jie
michelle,triffany,mei ling and kimmy
the curve
in Laundry (love the background)
in kayusigh* was sleeping and they had to take a pic of me..
jie and chris-NEGATIVE-
Wednesday, October 11, 2006, 10:07 PM
im about to lose my mind!!
screw the world
for my life is about to change drastrically
screw the world
for my life is about to change drastrically
i am never ready for life
i never plan my future
i have nothing ahead for me
i just want to die
i never plan my future
i have nothing ahead for me
i just want to die
LANTERN FESTIVAL~
Saturday, October 07, 2006, 2:56 AM
woot! it has been so long since i had this much fun!! i was enjoying myself without caring about wat anyone has to say! ehhe jacky,mei,vincent,chris ham,ngah ming,kimmy's frens and my little cuzzie's came!!! it's the last day of lantern festival and it was our first time playing it.. actually people don't play with thier lanterns, they play with the candles!! they should actually name it candle festival! aish i neva had the chance to play with the candle...*sob sob* all i did was play basketball!! lol.. vincent was totally entertaining us, but sometimes i don't really get what he was saying.this was how my day went
woke up at 12.00 then went to mid valley. renee kept on yaking about her poopypoo.. so i told her that her poopypoo died.. poopypoo is her pet from neopets!! lol i made for her the account and i named her pet poopypoo.
Aaron : hello poopypoo
Renee : mmmm i miss my poopypoo so much, my poopypoo died becuz of amelyn la!!! dunno how to take care of my poopypoo
Amelyn : reneeee do you know what poopypoo means?
Renee : hmmm? i don't know.. what?
Aaron : it means shit
Renee : *blur face* looking at me then at aaron *thinking dunno wether if it is true*
Amelyn : yea, poopypoo means shit! wahahhahaa
at 4.41pm, went to tuition straight from mid valley.. my tuition actually starts at 3.30.. eheh but my mum doesnt need to know that~ =P after b.m tuition was my acc's tuition.. during my accounts tuition when mr.eugene went out of the class
w.s : *he was sitting with his fren, he then got up and walked to the place where he usually sits*
aish why alicia never come... i miss her la... if alicia was here ar i wud *hugged the air as if alicia was there*
i just started laughing when he did that, he was soo cute because of what he did.. aahah and i think he was shy after that? eheh i dont know, i was looking at him side glance while doing my work, and when i laugh his frens laughed at him too, so he went back to his seat so i didnt bother to look at him after that..
at 8.00pm i finish tuition and had to wait for 30 minute for aunty jane to fetch me.. talked to this guy from my class.. it was my first time really talking to someone from tuition because i don't talk to anyone.. it was nice talking to him because i felt comfortable!!! it is unusual for amelyn to be COMFORTABLE talking to people she barely know!!! lol when i went back home, me,kimmy,amanda and renee went to atria and then to 1 utama because we wanted to buy renee a lantern but there wasn't any~ sigh* we then went to eat at ming tien where we started calling friends if they were coming to celebrate with us, but then everybody ffk us!!! lol amanda went and call mei who said that she was lazy so she didn't want to come, then called ngah ming who also said the same thing. i then called ngah ming back and force her to come.. whahahhahaha!! after dinner, we went to fetch jacky and on the way home *shit it's starting to drizzle* but we didn't bother bout it.
was shocked to see that yeen and derrick came.. ehhe when we were about to leave for the park vincent came~ while walking to the park, the drizzle started to grew a little bit heavier
Amelyn : go away la you rain!!!!
Kimmy : i prayed for rain this afternoon!! but why muz you rain now!!
Vincent : why would you want to pray for the rain?!
Kimmy : becuz i wanted the haze to go away
Amelyn : screw you la rain!!!! go away!!!
Vincent : he talking something about me, but i didn't listen to him....(i really dunno what he says sometimes, just laugh and pretends to know what he was saying, lmao)
when we reach the park, my cuzzies were already running around, and the rain started to get really heavy.. derrick and yeen went back home..
Amanda : okay!!! lets all go back....
cuzzies started walking back....
Amelyn : aiya don't care la!!! everybody go back!!!
cuzzies started running back to the park..rain started to rain heavily...
Amanda : eh amelyn!! ask them to come back!!
Amelyn : ok!!! let's all go back...
cuzzies started walking back...halfway going back
Amelyn : eh!!! the rain is starting to stop... see!!! i told you not to care about the rain!!! oi!!! come back!!!! let's go back to the park!!!!
cuzzies started running back to the park...
so we started playing our candle... eheh kimmy's frens came and vincent was talking non-stop about *stuff*.... then mei,ngah ming and chris came.. started playing bball.. mother lily was suppose to come but HE went and mati some where, he just drop by and went off... stupid mother lily, you suck!!!! whahahhahaha.. after that it started to rain again but this time... it was heavy rain!!!! everyone was soaking wet!!! i totally had alot of fun under the rain~ lol so did everyone else tho i know they don't want to admit that they actually had fun under the rain too!!! ngah ming and mei blame me for them getting wet!!! hmph! but i know you guys had fun~ lalalalala when we reach back home,our parent's gave us towels and we went to change..our friends clothes were dry wash... see how nice we are!! lol... so yea... overall i had neva had this much fun since... i don't know when... aish! all because of SPM!!! SHIT YOU!!!
see!!! i told you they were having fun!!
my grandfather and vincent getting along?! vincent can really talk to anybody.. that's why he is a salesmen!!! lol
wat the shit am i doing?
after bathing
peace out baby
everybody has settle down, look at vincent!!! he looked like this pic below
aint i hot baby~ lmao ( when i took the pic above, he ask if i was taking a pic of him while he was doing this)I FEEL
Tuesday, October 03, 2006, 3:56 AM
I feel like caging myself again
I dont wanna feel it
It just hurts too much
I need to be at peace right now
I need this feeling lifted
I cant take it anymore
Why do I keep it all inside?
I want somebody to know how I feel
But Im just too afraid to let anyone know
Nobody really knows how I feel
They don't know when Im sad
or when Im about to cry
This is because I always compose myself
showing no emotion
It happened alot of times and yet still nobody knows
I can't have the things I desire
It always goes to people who deserve it better
But don't I ever deserve it for once?
I want to feel what other poeple feel
To have someone beside them
Being able to tell everything to them
But that shall never happen
Because I just won't let anybody in
I guess Im just too stupid
There are people wanting to know
But Im afraid of exposing myself
I do tell things to people whom im close with
But not all!
I dont wanna feel it
It just hurts too much
I need to be at peace right now
I need this feeling lifted
I cant take it anymore
Why do I keep it all inside?
I want somebody to know how I feel
But Im just too afraid to let anyone know
Nobody really knows how I feel
They don't know when Im sad
or when Im about to cry
This is because I always compose myself
showing no emotion
It happened alot of times and yet still nobody knows
I can't have the things I desire
It always goes to people who deserve it better
But don't I ever deserve it for once?
I want to feel what other poeple feel
To have someone beside them
Being able to tell everything to them
But that shall never happen
Because I just won't let anybody in
I guess Im just too stupid
There are people wanting to know
But Im afraid of exposing myself
I do tell things to people whom im close with
But not all!
I've been feeling like crap this few weeks~ This is because I miss doing so many things
and many other stuff that's going on in my life right now. sigh*
fuck it!!
and many other stuff that's going on in my life right now. sigh*
fuck it!!
GOSH DARN IT~
Monday, October 02, 2006, 4:40 PM
help me, im at it again~
i don't want this thing to repeat itself..
why must it happen?
im just gonna make myself hurt
this alwiz happen to me
again and again
never wanting to stop
i have to do something about it
i guess by then it shall stop?
i don't want this thing to repeat itself..
why must it happen?
im just gonna make myself hurt
this alwiz happen to me
again and again
never wanting to stop
i have to do something about it
i guess by then it shall stop?
but i doubt so, gosh
REPOSTING STORY TIME 2
Sunday, October 01, 2006, 3:34 PM
joel and josiah came back after school. josiah went and told aunty jane (thier mother) this.josiah : mummy! my teacher said that on monday our school is having spotcheck. my teacher said that they are going to check our *ahem*
aunty jane : where got such thing one. silly la u
josiah : really!!
joel : don't be stupid la. what did your teacher said to you?
josiah : she said "hari isnin ada spotcheck, spotcheck sampai kuku"
the reason he told aunty jane this was becuz he wanted to wear his new underwear to school so that he could showoff when they take his pants off!! lmao
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